"..true love is when you buy the hard copy of an album even though you've already illegally downloaded it.."

Besides waiting for summer getaways and the usual barkada gimmicks, there are things that I do to depart from the norm. Truth be told, I've gotten by the days and weeks of stress, boredom, and work just because of this day, the JAT (Japan Arena Tour) + Fire Overload Album Launch of my five shining gay husbands, SHINee. I  even bought new clothes for the said event, not just because I was excited for it, but also they said to wear the color of our fandom, Aqua Blue/Pearlescent Sky Blue.

Oh yish. I'm wearing my boots 'cause I felt fashionable and fierce HAHAHAHA eew

Me, my cousin and my sister were all really eager to go as early as possible, knowing that there was a possibility that the stocks of the albums might not be enough. But we were held back by the inevitable occurrence that is chores. So in the end, we got off at 9:30am and the event was gonna start at 10 am. Have I mentioned that we're from Laguna and the event was to be held at SM Megamall in Mandaluyong? Yeah.

You don't even wanna know how much this album is >.<

Being with the two most carnivorous creatures in our family, we decided to eat right after buying the album. Since my sister was always telling me that she hasn't eaten with me in any "conyo" places, I insisted we eat at Subway.

You know that game where they spell the word on your back? Well, I'm not really good with that but knowing I might win some kpop merchandise, I suddenly became competitive LOL

There was a time in our life when we were kept in a cocoon, and inside that shell was where we developed most of our being. I can say that I was inside that cocoon in the period of my high school and college days.

High school was when I built my bravery, and learned the power of my decisions.

And college.. well, that's when I found out most of who I am now.

It's rather refreshing to go back to the times when we were naive and unconscious of the world. When I've always thought I had to bring all my books to school just because.
When I thought I needed good grades no matter what or else.. or else. Well, I never really knew. I just always thought I needed it. I never questioned anything people tell me. And maybe, that was what made the world so wonderful that time. 'Cause you knew little, 'cause there were many things yet to be discovered.

But there was one thing I grew up with.
I like classifying things. And yes, that is including the homo sapiens of this world.
In my elementary days, it was only the "Populars" and "Normal" people. The name pretty much says what it is. If you're curious where I think I belonged in these set of people then I can say I was between them. Of course, my mind got hold of new species to classify once I entered the animalandia of high school. Shall we make a list?

The Incredibles
- These are the people who pretty much has a big resemblance to "The Populars". Everyone in your batch knows who they are and those who don't, knows them by name and face. Would I say they are kind people? Yep. Well, at least the ones I got to know.

The Mean Girls
- Uhhmm.. do I even need to explain this? Okay. Fine. This set of people, be female/male specie, are the ones who always carries a knife around with them. So in any chance they get, they stab you. Pretty hard too.

The Boogey Mans
- These are people who have nothing else to do but suck the happiness from the room and turn it into a riot. They bully people a lot.

The Megaminds
- They are the Einsteins of the society [it's a bit weird for me calling them 'Einsteins' since we actually had a section in fourth year whose named after Einstein]. People always thought they were boring to hang out with. Well, they aren't. They're nice and well.. they're good group leaders. Just don't take advantage of them. 'Cause they bite.

The Sociables
- They might sound like "The Incredibles" but there are some differences. These people are very kind to everyone. And I mean everyone. They know what to say and where to be. They're the officers of clubs, student body government and whatever shannanigans your school wasted their money on.

The Patricks to your Spongebob
- These are the people who caught your eye in the first meeting and you got along with right away. They can be stupid at times, but also full of wisdom when you need them. You pretty much do everything together and you guys are best of friends.

The Wallflowers
- They're always awfully quiet. The ones who just laughs in the background or sometimes disappears and becomes the background. Always an easy target for the boogey mans.

If you're gonna ask where I am in my own list, I would prolly say I'm a pokemon. I never liked being the same with anyone. Ha-ha.

Also, I realized that this list made me a close-minded person. And we wouldn't want that, right? So drop the lists and be anyone you wanna be. Just make sure it's not the wrong 'anyone'.
Cheerio~

"Why do you film everything? I mean, I'm sure you don't want to remember everything."
"What isn't worth remembering? With good memories come bad memories and I've got a lot of both. At least this way I can fast-forward through all the bad stuff."

P.S: This post is like eons late but it still is a memory so...

If you have met me personally or talked to me in the life span of 45 minutes, then I may not or may have said something about me being a fangirl. If that's so, you may or may not know how "fangirling" works. So let me break it down little by little.

• I can feel the joy and heartbreak of love by simply looking at their picture.
• Bias (n.) - favorite member from the group
• I ship a lot. Not the 'ship' as in the ship in Titanic, or 'ship' as in ship things to other places. But ship as in shipping and liking a pair, be it same sex or strange, we ship it. Exhibit A: Emma Stone and Andrew Garfield
• You might find it weird that I keep saying that I hate their existence and want them to go away. But that is my endearment for them.
• I speak to him directly as if we've already met.
• I have this delusional thinking that he is my husband and he is waiting for me to come home to him every night.
• One of my biggest dreams is to come to his country and have babies with him.

It is still unknown to this day, how exactly "fangirling" works. But my studies have resulted to this. These are merely the basic points, but these points are a far cry from the emotional sabotages we fangirls endure. I still do hope it gave you a sense or idea. Lastly, if after this you think differently of me then I would like to point out that "fangirling" is normal. Every person has the right to want and obsess over things that life has to offer. And I am making no snide comments as to what YOU like or what YOU prefer, so kindly do everyone the honor of respecting what they like. But if you find this a health hazard, then feel free to warn me.

NOTE: I speak for the K-pop community. I am not entirely sure if this can be applied to other fandoms.

"Tell me then about the girl who locks herself in her room and drowns out every other sound and lets herself be unknown to the world and just get lost in music."

-writing inspired by Kryzette xx