"Tell me then about the girl who locks herself in her room and drowns out every other sound and lets herself be unknown to the world and just get lost in music."

-writing inspired by Kryzette xx

"It is tossed by the waves, but does not sink."

Love comes in many forms. To love a place may seem odd, but nevertheless, I am. I've never step foot in this place, and it is uncertain that I ever will. But one thing is for sure, my delight for this city will never fade.

Paris, the capital of France, widely known as the "City of Love". I've had a fascination towards the Eiffel Tower ever since I first laid my eyes on it from a photograph. It was a mystery why. Perhaps it was the thought of love, the feeling of the wind blowing through my hair, seeing the marvel of the city high up and a rush of adrenaline coursing through my body as I hold my breath for what awaits. I really can't recall what came to me when I saw that photograph, I was a little girl when it happened. But I imagine myself grinning and my eyes sparkling, gaping at the marvel and thinking, "One of these days, I would stand right there.", then pointing at the top of the structure. It's a spot where many want to be. A spot where you'll smell fresh baked bread, hear the beeping of cars and motorcycles, and houses that are centuries old, that it's being vintage adds so much beauty to what you see. This is what I imagined Paris to be. And it is what I want to wake up to everyday. Everyday, I want to wake up to the feeling of love and true beauty.

People of different sizes, faces and personalities will come and go. But there are those who stand out and leave a mark, a special place in your heart. These are the people, however far away and distant, still is present and puts a smile in your face even if just mentioned. The ones who will not fret on telling you how stupid you are for making a bad decision but still manage on encouraging you to keep going. And even if you made the same mistake twice, will never truly leave you.

Mom, Dad, Kuya Jeje, Jas, and Kaith. I could never have asked more for a better family. You are the reason I travel everyday from Laguna to Manila and vice versa. Even if I come home exhausted, it is nothing compared to your company and the laughter we share together.

Trust these people to bring out the inner diva in anyone; Chill, Macy, Sheezie, Nicole and Kuya Jec. You remind me to never forget my past but to cherish it, for it is what made me who I am today. I miss you guys so much (\^*^/)


 

The crowd I work with, the most extraordinary ones, Jean bb. I love you. Not in a gay kind of way, but as a friend. You're one of the very few who I picture myself growing old with. You can be the aunt of my future children. Ha-ha ;) Also, Toowin Francis, I've never met someone who embodied the saying "It's better to give than to receive" so much better than you. Keep rocking you guys \m/


The half-recluse, half witch, and full time 1D fanatic friend of mine, Kryzette. Even if we've known each other for only a short period of time, I feel connected to you. Maybe it's because of the books, or the stories you have, or perhaps because we're writers. Whatever reason it is, one things is for sure. You taught me that friendship can be conjured in unusual ways.



You guys truly are peculiar. You stood out and left a mark in me. A mark I will carry around until I am no more.
I am eternally grateful xx

One cold Sunday night, my brother and I decided to see "Struck by Lightning". My brother kept billowing that it was a really good movie so I decided to watch it. Besides, it's Chris Colfer and I just cannot say no to how adorable he is. And wha'd ya know? The movie was phenomenal. I read reviews of the movie, and sadly, people seem to think otherwise. Some say that the characters were built too hollow and the story line seemed a bit cliche. But what they couldn't see is how realistic the movie was. It showed how life can bring you down so many times, but the only thing you can do is fight, that even if it's hard to get back up, it still is a choice whether to get back up or give up. I think the movie made so much impact on me that's why I loved it so much. The passion and hard work Carson (Chris Colfer) brings to everything he do is simply marvelous. I just thought everything in the movie was genuine. It's a teen movie, and I can't blame movie-watchers to think that it is cliche. But all the things said in this movie was complete reality. Well, except being struck by real lightning though ;)

My favorite lines from the movie:
"Like having a great idea, life comes at you fast. It hits you and tries to escape and be expressed in any way possible. In a way, it's a lot like...lightning."
- I loved this line the moment it escaped from Chris' mouth. I can relate to this in so many levels. You form a great idea and you just want to express it in any way possible, in my case writing.

"...because a life without meaning, without drive or focus, without dreams or goals, isn't a life worth living."
- This struck me really hard. 'Cause I don't know where to go yet, I have no idea what I want yet and that made me kinda worried.

"You've got to show the world who you are before it tells you. Otherwise you become victim to someone you're not."
- When I was still a really little girl, more petite than I am now, I always thought that you have to please everyone, but as movies, TV series, books and my own experiences taught me, you really can't. Just as long as you're pleased with yourself and you love what you're doing, nothing else really matters.

"Sometimes a personal rain cloud can be deadly."
- I've always been a pessimistic person. Hell, my brother even gave me a nickname, "The Nega-Star". Ha-ha. But I've learned that taking pity on yourself doesn't really improve anything. It only makes you feel worse. So after a series of unfortunate events, I realized that rather than going on your own pity parade, it was better to hold your head up and move on. 'Cause life won't stop when you get down, it continues, and so should you.

There have been rare occurrences when I am idle and inspired. And that's saying something since these days, I usually am idle, like now. Teehee :>

When these rare things happen, I tend to write them down on my handy dandy notebook. Now, I want to share some of the things my mind goes pondering with.
These are lyrics, but they do not have melodies yet since I cannot make one. Ha-ha.

Please do not plagiarize these. I mean I know they're not THAT good but these are fruits of my imagination so yeah :p

Title: Labyrinth Verse 1: Sometimes you just feel lost Out of place, out of words That sudden change of emotion That deafening explosion Refrain: Feeling no one can save you No one to talk to This is love lost This is love wanting to be found Oh beloved one, where art thou? Chorus:  I can keep singing, keep writing Keep dreaming and keep thinking about us But if you are nowhere to be found What's the point of being around? Verse 2 I smile, laugh and live Normal day, work, eat and sleep Don't you get tired of the same routine? Let my life have meaning Refrain: This is love lost This is love wanting to be found Oh sweet meaningful bliss, drown me now (Repeat Chorus) Bridge: I don't wanna give up I want to be drowned with love So I'll keep waiting, just waiting.. Chorus: I'll keep singing, keep writing Keep dreaming and keep thinking of us I know you're just waiting to be found I'll keep looking and find my way around.. love

Here's To Us Verse 1: I write this song to us To those who have sleepless nights From falling in love Or from falling apart For those who feel differently Who wakes up feeling guilty Oh when the world disagrees Don't try to disappear Chorus: 'Cause tonight we'll be dauntless Oh yeah we'll be reckless Forget all those pretty faces We'll go to different places Verse 2: They'll try to drown us out But the world keeps spinning round And our hearts won't stop beating We'll keep going Yeah we'll keep fighting (Repeat Chorus) Bridge: Throw a fist in the air Tonight we don't care Don't care if they see us We're brave, regardless (Repeat Chorus)

Hi. *waves hand*
You've probably read the description of my blog already. If you haven't it's just up there. See? It's the text after my blog title. Teehee. I feel obliged to explain my blog title and URL. So here goes:

Why is my blog named "you're not so bad yourself"?
- It's usually said after a compliment, right? And well, I thank all the people whoever complimented me, because even if it was just the smallest thing, it made an impact. It can make a change. You turned a frown into a smile. I want to be able to share those kind of experiences with you guys. This time, I want you to be the one who can say "you're not so bad yourself".

Why "aber-rant"?
- Well, according to the World Wide Web (thank Heavens for Google), aberrant means "diverging from the normal type", which is exactly what I've always wanted to do, been doing and will always do. I mean who doesn't like standing-out, right? Anyway, I wanted my URL to be mind-blowing, so I hid other obvious messages in it, i.e Making the word 'rant' pop out. WWW says that as a verb it means "speak or shout at length in a wild, impassioned way". Well, I am not shouting in this blog, but it is rather a metaphor. This blog represents my experiences, emotions and a part of my being, and is free for the whole world to see. If that doesn't sound like shouting to the world who you are, then I don't know what is.

I guess that's all that I have to say in here. The following posts should paint you a picture of me, so feel free to browse. Let a life of adventures begin!

P.S: If you don't care what I'm saying, or find me annoying, then.... still feel free to browse. It's not my time being wasted ;)